但是我不会放弃得。Time is running out as other commitments demand my atttention. I do not have the luxury of time to complete this post in Chinese. However, I will write my thoughts in English and translate when I have the time. So to continue - in English!
It's like people climbing mountains. Why do they do it? For a sense of accomplishment and fulfilment. Learning Chinese is my Mt Everest - one of the toughest tasks I have ever embarked on but also one that is the counted as meaningful in my life because it is motivated by passion, not money or fame and it is steered by my own inner wish to succeed, not driven by external factors like pay or bonuses.
Also I have a friend who is Chinese-educated and who is very supportive and encouraging of my efforts. Despite her busy schedule at work and looking after a family, she finds time to read my blog and to correct the mistakes I have made in the previous two posts. I am so touched by her enthusiasm in helping me to improve in my learning of the language. Knowledg of her support has given me extra fuel in accelerating my learning.
I am also lucky to have a tutor who helps me appreciate the deeper meanings of the lyrics of songs and the writing of Jimmy Liao that on my own I am unable to grasp. I do not want to learn the functionality of the language but rather I want to reach deeper into the rich store of my cultural heritage through the language. That is why normal lessons on Chinese will not suit me. I have to do it my way.